Angelversaries, March of Dimes, and Mother's Day

Back to back days and reminders of what I came close to having...and then had taken away.

1st Angelversary: The anticipation of the day was much more difficult and sad than the actual day itself.

March of Dimes: Volunteered to work the registration booth. I felt like I needed to do something or be a part of the event in some way. Seeing all those babies and families together actually made me feel good. I imagined that most of the families there were there because they too have had some experience where they either loss a baby/babies or almost did. It made me feel good to see that so many families came out on the other side of it with babies to hold and love on the outside world.

Mother's Day: I did not anticipate feeling any particular way on Mother's Day. For most of the day, I tried to ignore the fact that it was indeed Mother's Day. When I woke up that morning, I actually thought it was Monday (clearly my subconscious mind did not want to acknowledge this day). I went for a walk, did some cleaning, watched movies. And then it hit me when the day was almost over. I overheard a phone conversation in which my husband wished his mother, aunts, and grandmother all a happy mother's day. And then the water works began.

Almost made it.