It's going to be somebody. Why not me? I feel like I have been on the wrong side of statistics too many times. Second trimester loss? Me. Incompetent cerivix? Miscarriage first trimesteer? Me. Hemorrage? Me. Blood transfusion? Me. Infection? Me. Depression? Me. Post traumatic stess disorder? Me. Why not me for everything else. I want a baby. I want a baby to kick, live, and exist inside of me for the whole duration of a normal pregnancy for 40 weekss...and come out breathing, crying, kicking, and nursing.
But. I am so scared. I feel like evey risk of childbirth is a personal risk that I have to surpass. I want a baby, but I don't want to risk my life again to only come out a dead baby mama.
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I am so with you on this. I am scared too... I am praying for you friend. Lizy
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